I Overthink Too Much, Too Much

 I have been having a hard time sleeping lately.  This goes beyond the normal difficulties I face involving lights shining into my room, or the almost incessant chirping of some animal nearby.  Seriously, it can last for minutes at a time, or start and stop a few times for half an hour.  No, much of my latest problems stem from thinking about what I'm going to do about school.  I have many choices to make, some need to be addressed quite soon.  Admittedly, my problems aren't as severe or devastating as other people's, but it is still stressing me out.  (Condolences to those that are facing worse lately.  R., I should have, could have been there.  I was only three miles away.  However, I don't do well in such situations.). My main stressor is that I have no one I can talk to about how I can get answers to my problem.  When I first went to college, I knew I wanted to become a professional writer.  However, I wanted some financial stability before I started out.  I was going to explore various possibilities, but I wound up not getting to do anywhere near what I wanted to do.  Because of that, it took me almost thirty years to come up with a plan that suits me.  Unfortunately, I don't have the contacts that could help me figure out what I should do.  I have ideas, but I don't know if I'm correct about my assumptions.  There are just so many variables, some of which I can't mention, that I can't see my way.  As I mentioned, I need to decide about a few things; the first is if I should take a summer class, and I need to decide soon.  I fear I might be dropped from my school if I don't take a class.  On the other hand, I don't know if I should even continue to try to go for a degree I might not need, even after all of the time and money I'ver already spent.  But if I don't get a way to get the degree I do want, should I try for the one I am currently on track for?  When I first started thinking about this post, I came up with some ideas about how to get help.  I just don't know if it would work.  I've put my entire life one hold for so long, waiting for a way to move forward.  I'm almost fifty.  If I don't do anything soon, it will be too late.  I just wish I had someone to help me out.  Someone to talk to. Someone who knows the answers to my questions.  I need you, whoever you are.